As I have said, I lived a very different life to many...
When I was four, I went to see a friend of mine who lived on the Cul de Sac. I knew she wasn't ill in the normal way and when her parents denied me access to her, closing the door on me, I literally booted their door down to get in, shoved past the shocked oldies to find her, in bed, not ill, but very very sad. A sadness we both understood.
At five I entered school, there had been no preschool for me, and I found the routine extremely hard. I remember wetting myself as the teacher said i wasn't allowed to go too the toilets except in the breaks, though she didn't explain that rule until after I had asked to go, I threw a desk, and walked home in my wet knickers. Rules were changed after that, as how can one expect a new entrant to exercise such control?
Half way through this year, I was diagnosed with a learning disorder, requiring special classes for reading, I learned very quickly as for some reason I only need to see the top half of the letters, and once shown the techniques, was away. Code breaking is a skill of mine. Though the special lessons continued.
At six my parents were called to the school to watch me swim, the teacher had never seen a child swim under water for so long, let alone swim like a fish after one lesson. I went on to hold the 10 year old girls 100meter swimming record for New Zealand 1.06, I think it was, though I was pulled from swimming not long after, as I was gaining attention.
At seven, upon a sponsored walk up a local mountain, I started off with a family, who were too slow, I was up the top, stamped and met them on the way back, where they were not even a quarter of the way. Just as well I had my stamp, they accused me of cheating.
And that's the way it was. I could locate a place to be, where I was, and move between the two points, very quickly. And every time I achieved something, there was someone to slap me down, take the joy away, or treat the achievement as nothing.
I over came my programming, you can too. I have skills and tools waiting, to support you. Please, take my hand.
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Like I said, I've lived a very different life to many...
I was born in Keneperu Hospital in Porrirua, New Zealand. A very different kind of hospital, dealing mainly in Mental Health and to the New Zealand Government, or as it was then, Post Office, crowd.
My best friend in those early years, for example, father went on to be a prime leader in the Fijian coup. Yeah I remember...
Any how, my father was a Telecommunications Engineer...he designed and built Satellite Receiver/Transmitters. It wasn't just "mechanics" these guys were playing with.
My real programming aside from the usual trauma started when we moved out of the "State Housing" and into another form, a subdivision, with a lot of children, over 30 in our little CulDeSac, all up and coming professional people (pilots, physicists etc).
I will never forget the terror that visited me in that house...so much so I would visit the stars...but that is what the terror was for. To get me to split into pieces, to fragment, so I could be programmed on different levels...Yes I remember the sacred geometry movies, and bits of the programs instilled, though not much, during office "parties" when some children would walk through one door, and others through another.
I remember, when I was around 6, an older lady with an accent, whose house I randomly chose to visit, often, giving me a book...It was a Special Edition Readers Digest full print with color plates, leather, maybe fake, embossed, with gilt edging, some of you have probably guessed, it was a copy of Alice In Wonderland. To this day I have an aversion to both this story, and the Wizard of Oz, possibly part of the programming to avoid accidental triggering.
So you see, it wasn't just mechanical bits of metal, these people were working on, it was minds. I became a Satellite Receiver/Transmitter, skills I still have, so if I'm talking on AI, codes and programming etc, I'm still tapped in tuned in and turned on, and I can distinguish between a psyop and the real deal, so listening may be beneficial. So I avoid certain groups, as AI still follows me everywhere, but I have also learnt to circumnavigate a lot, including deprogramming trauma and suicide programs, integration of soul fragmentation a lot of the Monarch (well that which suits lol). When I say, I have a joy filled life, and I can support you to have one also. I'm very, very serious.
Shadow Self. Projection
When you feel an emotion and you suppress it. Then, you feel an emotion and you suppress it again, it sits within you like a negative charge.
Debbie Ford describes these darker emotions, stuck within self, as being like a socket. And of course a socket, needs a plug, to complete it's circuit. And these are the negative or angry people and situations that you attract. This is projection.
More though because you are not owning these darker emotions within yourself, you actually search for and find them in others. This is not so much because other people possess these darker emotions, it is you, projecting your hidden, disowned emotions upon them. For instance "the blame game".
So, really important that you own and take responsibility for your darker emotions as they arise, and go in search of those buried within.
Recognising emotions and allowing them to move through is only part of the journey. The real healing and conscious enlightenment occurs, when these emotions are reframed as the helpers, motivators and teachers that they are. This is when you recognise and know the wonderful aspects that these emotions bring to your life, for example fear keeps you safe ...Perhaps a good place to start is to stop calling and thinking of your darker emotions as negative.
When you work among the shadows, you are illuminating and finding a deeper meaning within the human experience.
For this reason I created the "Dump Your Stuff" Course. This course allows the chance to explore our deeper darker sides, effectively "shining a light" on those inner hard to reach places.
You can find an entry point for this journey here at my website www.juhllightheart.com this course is going to be twice the price in the future. I'm running this special as there are so many tools and tips within, its the perfect place for those requiring deep changes as well as those new practitioners in need of new skills or walking into the Soul Missions, to begin
How often have you heard “trust your gut”?
I swear if I hear another thing thing about “trusting that gut feeling” I just might tear the Spiritual House down.
This may be true in someones world, but in mine, my gut got pretty screwed up. You see the intuition from my gut, that was supposed to keep me safe, was constantly over ridden. The very people who were supposed to love me were the ones who were hurting me. So my gut got broken! Did yours?
Hello! Two fold problem. Not only was my “gut’ being constantly over ridden but so was my trust. After all it was necessary in my mind to split the people I knew into the good part and the bad part…the good part for the neighbors and family to protect “our secret” and my survival, and the bad part (end this paragraph here as this topic is worthy of its own article).
There’s a spiritual explanation on this whole gut intuition thing. You may of heard of the chakra. Well the one in the gut just below your tummy button, that is the sacral chakra, an important part of the spiritual energy system as it houses the flow of information around relationships and those emotional connections of sensuality and intimacy. Here’s the thing though, it houses the emotional “memory” of relationships and situations too. So if you walk into a situation and your “gut” tightens, possibly it is your sacral, responding to stored or historical information. And you might start to see the problem here for your/my abused self. A lot of our historical information comes from a pretty skewed point of view.
So your walking down the street and you see this person and your gut goes bang, tight, and you think oh no, avoid, avoid, avoid, but,
The answer lies within our hearts, or heart center chakra. Generally recognized as being between the breasts, this energy center holds and moves through, love energy, of the deep, sacred, unconditional kind. The heart has a spiritual intuition all of it’s own. This intuition and energy is easily accessed, simply place your left hand over the heart or chakra area, place your attention there also, and envision this area expanding. Notice what you notice, perhaps a flood of warmth, or love entering your torso, maybe a feeling of lightness. For now just notice the sensation.
Right, ever practical, here’s a little exercise I would like you to do . Think of a person or situation that has recently made your tummy tighten. Got it. Good…now place your left hand over the heart chakra, experience this energy, and then, think of the situation again. Now notice what you notice, does your tummy relax? Does it stay tight? Does your heart sensation increase, decrease? If your tummy relaxes and your heart remains expansive, then chances are your “gut” intuition response was stimulated by a “historical” resonance or remembering, and this would of been a safe experience to visit; if however your “gut” remains tight and your heart sensation, stays the same or decreases…then you KNOW, your “gut” response was indeed correct. These are the intuition responses you should trust.
Try this little exercise over a few different scenarios within your memory banks. Notice the different responses between the sacral and heart intuition centers. When you become familiar with the different sensations, take the exercise and test it out on people and situations you cross whilst out and about. A necklace or adjusting the bra strap are great ways of disguising the hand over the chakra.
Yes trusting self and feelings is a huge issue, especially when these have been manipulated to serve the purpose of others. Developing little tools that work for you, like this heart/gut intuition test, is a great way of taking back personal power. You are not broken! And if this little tool, doesn’t help you work out a tricky from a safe situation, well don’t you worry, I have a lot more. Work with me .
There seems to be this reluctance to admit that people do have a hard time and suffer occasionally.
When Abraham Hicks talks about getting into the "flow" they always say..."You can't go from zero to 50 in a second".
People elevate themselves through moving through emotions.
Each emotion requires acknowledgment of where the person is now.
When a person comes into your practice or online, saying... "yes but we are not going back there", is not particularly helpful, before the person has had a chance to fully express the intricacies around a situation. Just because you as a coach can see the way out and through, does not mean a client can.
The tendency to rush people into feeling good and indeed, not allowing them to feel bad in your presence, is not helpful to long-term wellness.
When people come to a practitioner often it is because they are already feeling broken, depressed and stuck, maybe even powerless. These are the very symptoms of suppression. Often they are outwardly o.k. and appear in control. Why, because of emotional suppression.
How much more empowered might a person feel if they were listened to, and actually allowed to talk, not only about their 'negative' feelings , but the incidences that had been squelched during a life that is spent in dissonance with the reality of an insane world, where being "strong" is not only a norm, but a must. Where the Warrior is the only acceptable form of living.
The true strong and warrior, are states of being that are arrived at once the deeper emotions of living have been explored, and the energy transmuted so that a person deeply understands why the emotions and responses around a situation occurred, and how these responses have helped them to be the beautiful soul they are now.
Regardless of how we, the practitioner's feel about a person's life choices and journey, please have the good grace to listen to the story, in a way that your client feels truly heard.
Holding our clients with empathy and compassion, listening and validating their life stories, offering our heart space. This is the way I feel we should be honoring our clients. In this way we empower them to realize the value of their lives.
Shamanism: Healing Ancestral Karma.
A Shaman, identifies illness as being in one of three categories.
Loss of Power-When we are born we are all gifted with spirit animals. As we grow these animals may change, and some may have more than one. Sometimes the spirit animal will live over 14 years. However, these spirit animals require playing with...or else they get bored and leave. I spend a lot of time with Angels and Gods, and had lost mine. Oops, who knew? A Shaman will help you journey to return your animal or find a new one.
These Animal spirits are not to be confused with your Animal Power Guides.
Psychic Intrusion-This happens in one of two ways. Something may attach itself to the soul. A Shaman will excise and dispose of this entity (what is toxic to your soul may not be toxic to the sea or earth).
Or in an extreme and very rare happening, something may take over the vessel, the soul inhabits. Again the Shaman will remedy this.
Soul loss- where the soul fragments, and must be returned to the owner.
This may happen from Trauma e.g. an accident . Think Post Traumatic Stress Response. (As Dr Farmer calls it, as stress is a natural bodily response, not a disorder.)
A part of the soul may also be given away. This is usually noticed upon the break up of a relationship. Most can equate with the feelings of heartbreak. Perhaps you can get visitation rights lol...or your local Shaman can sort it out.