(Note my Illuminati, full disclosure, eye).
Well I was feeling really buoyant. 
Oh yeah hung over, slow to start...when the party ends...and work kicks in. 
I love reading cards, I’m good at it. The Tarot is my friend. 
Yes, I hide behind my cards, I’m not ready to have thought streams and dead people turning up off the cuff. Book an appointment please. 


And therein lies the rub. 
I do not want to be the callin lady for urgent business. It’s too messy and could have been avoided had you decided to book in for a full reading earlier.  (My blog, my rant, I get over it).

Some things I have discovered, about my reading and the cards, yours will be different, but the fact I have discovered this about myself and the tarot relationship, should suggest  

• I use the cards a lot 
• Have done for a long time 

• Have thought about the ways that work for me 
• Have thought about how others systems work for them 
• Have thought about and looked into “Modeled Systems” 
• Have developed my own 

 
If my cards are kicking up dates over six months away, the message is more in the cards, than in the dates. Although I have had two instances, both within the same reading, that have given me pause for thought. The Fool appearing in past position, seems to be a way of the cards saying. “All of this spread, is because of something that happened in the past”, indeed, the outcome card gave the date of the original faux pas, rather than the time the incident will be reconciled by. And the King of Swords, Death and the Ace of Swords, can mean teeth trouble, when appearing within a reading, not necessarily in that order, or together. 

Dates can be fitted in with long term goals, but really, unless I am looking at the most disciplined of people, rigidly held and i's dotted to the T, shit happens. Three months is long enough to show the tendencies of thought, emotion, reality, cleansings and general wellbeing, that are going to reflect in your manifestation, of the Magick of being you. 

My goal, for everyone, is to get them using their intuition, to help people navigate their world in a beautiful way. I’m a Magickal life coach. My training is ongoing, as should yours be, but I have definitely paid to learn what I am doing, live what I am doing, and have watched it work, for both myself and others for long enough, to charge a fee. 

I also have been working for long enough to know, if people don’t pay a fee, they don’t value or think about the information presented, deeply enough to make it count and use for positive change. 

I want you, reading your own cards, using a pendulum, or to become so aware, of how energy affects your body, you can tell your yes from, your no. 
My standard teaching for survivors of childhood abuse, in particular highly sensitive or empathic people is this. 

N.B. I use the Chakra as energy areas of the body, you may intuit your own energy system, but these areas of the body will still respond in similar ways. 

Sometimes living really can screw with your intuition, as the people you love and trust are often the ones that hurt you. So, you may feel you are continually "going against" your greater good. 

A lot of people know about that "gut feeling" (some listen to it lol). And yes, it is there to keep you safe. Many believe it is the sacral chakra responding to people and situations. Here is the thing though...This area has brain cells, which may be why a lot of memories, of relationships, are stored or energetically pinged here. 
When you meet someone, and you get that gut feeling (for good or bad), it may be that the energy of this person is evoking the sacral memory response. For this reason, I would like to introduce you to another form of intuition. That of the heart chakra. 
If you place your left hand over your heart chakra, place your attention within its glow, and redirect your focus to the person met, notice what changes. If you relax, it may have been the sacral memory mentioned earlier. If the feeling is the same and the gut remains tight, MOVE ON! 
Now this handy little tip is great and can be applied to those "prospects" in the bar. When you get those wow, eye meeting moments...Reach up and adjust your bra strap (disguising your left hand over the heart area) and redirect your gaze. Listen/feel what changes. It may be your sacral going: Hell Yeah! Two Pairs of Shoes under my bed tonight! Or leading you into the karmic dance of another chance to be the one that ends those, no good abusive, go nowhere, run arounds. 
Alternatively, if your heart is still singing...This may actually be the one. Trust it.. 
This line, or thread, of thinking has a long lineage behind it. I’m sure others have put it together also. I have just been practicing a new/old way. 

Mr White, during a Necrophysics lesson over at Rune Soup, mentioned how he felt a yes or no answer, come in from the universe. 
Juhl’s mind went into overdrive. Yes or No, what answers that instantly, a pendulum, what do you have to do with a pendulum, you have to program it! You align yourself with the pendulum and ask it to show you a yes, then you ask it to show you a no, and some, program in a maybe, or up to fate, or something neutral, allowing the universe/source/energy/God some privacy or discretion of action. 
So, I aligned myself, with me and my kind of energy (love) and asked, straight out for how a yes was going to feel and how a no was going to feel. Boom instant physical answers. 
No, I have not had a chance to go gambling yet, responsibility and being aligned with love are my thing. And I shall start small 🙂 

I am however extremely excited. 
When I first began work in the intuitive field, don’t make me count how long ago, I began shadow work on myself, and there was no way I could get such a clear and crystal, yes and no response, (yes, I tried) and no way, would I have trusted that signal. Mr White and I however, share some Doreen lineage, it would appear and I am using that game card, to put this thread of thought, out. (My naming them, is a lineage of my thought, which goes way beyond them both. One could term the beginning in time, of this thought collective, an Ancestor). You shall have to sign up for the course, as I did, for much more.  
 
Finally, the point of this whole long missive, I think is a good one. Using my methods and systems and thought patterns, a lot of love from and for others, I have evolved to the point where I am a relatively in control cosmic conduit. I have allowed myself to dig deep, to hurt, to ritual, to meditate, to do whatever the fuck it takes, to make it to and stay within that special place of growth, aliveness, levity, compassion and love, that allows me to be as I believe we were all meant to be. Yes I’m egoic, yes I’m opinionated, yes I have chosen my own programs. I am totally human. Happy to evolve my ways, if you can show me something truly better. The best part is, if you haven't got that flowing, healthy, almost in control feeling, where you are picking up what the universe is putting down, growing a wonderful life for you, your family, and the world, YOU CAN GET IT TOO. 

I am the biggest screw up I know, sexually abused, drug addicted, hooker, bankrupt, sinner, you name it throw it at me, it will justifiably stick. And yet I feel great. You can too, just carry on doing what you are doing, sharing what works and owning those muck ups. Sometimes learning sucks. We should only need a lesson once. Reach out and book some time with me, if you are on your second or third round, I could support you in your efforts to grow. Be scared, change happens, let fear guide you if that is what it takes, transmute that fear to anger and wow, we have Alchemical gold for change. 
I hear this rumour that Mercury and Neptune are doing this dance, and Mars is there and Sirius is disappearing for the first time ever on Tuesday, and isn’t it all a bit much?  
 
Live your own Legend 
 
In peace, strength and love 
Juhl xx 
 
 
 
 
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​Divination I drew

A sign of things to start, yes, little did I realise how difficult things would get, as what I can only perceive as weather tech, came into battle with Will. I decided to use every hour of the grimoire bits I had, that I could, on rethinking "fire putting out" tech. 

I also watered the garden after every journey, ostensibly being a fireman and putting out fires. 
Chaos rocks the LARP
​
Jan 22 
Intuitively changed Facebook pic and profile ​

Posted. 
A rain intention is happening for Australia at 3:30 pm New Zealand time. 
Huon Valley in particular is in flames. 
Please pray for the beings of land and place. ​

Jan 28 Postings 

Tweet 
Went on the journey horrified to find out we were being defeated by HAARP 

Facebook 
Thank you to those who are helping with the bush fires in Tasmania. 
I had not realised when I asked, that there would be two harp stations directing our efforts away. 
I sat and watched the beams on the weather satellite last night. I was gutted. I'm so sorry to of had your time and energy wasted. 
But I do thank you for trying. 
Now to find another way. 
In peace, strength and love. 
 
Juhl is upset. All that prayer and energy on cooling and watering Tassie. The satellites are clearly showing harp beams, pushing cloud and rain away. Time for a rethink. Just as well I love puzzles. 
 
By now Townsville was in Big Trouble

Jan 28 
Posting 
Day of Mars hour of the Moon, Down Under. In 3.33 hours it shall be the hour of Mars. Time to Ask For Aid. St Agatha is still on spot fire duty, maniacally cackling with each one she pounces on, gee she hates fire, Who is left?  

A journeying I went. 

On the 30th the journey was answered by Austin Coppock and Gordon White. 


Jan 29 Facebook posted 

I have been working most of the night, in stealth dragon mode. (I poisoned myself here trying to work out how to take out a HAARP station energetically).
 
Posted 
At that stage. I must trust what I and others have done to be efficacious. I swear I feel rain in Tasmania. Love to All and to All a good night. 
 
There were always light touches of Misty fairy rain in Tasmania, just not enough for a good dampening down. 
The wind and temperature however were being held in check. Lol I’m sure a lot of cold air was imported from the States and England. 

Jan 30 
Watched Gordon’s show, two answers to both of my issues. I hadn’t been able to Get On Country, as I hadn’t been invited. So, I turned up before the local dead and opened my heart before them. They knew I was ‘staying with the troubles’ and allowed me in, once I had sung the fire song to Others. 
​
The second, of Aid, was answered by a name I can say but cannot spell, in a mass meditation, meeting a dragon, of different appearance to me, but who also disliked forest fires, to the point of anger.  ​

Feb 3 

By here the mass intention and women’s work or crafts were well under way. Kaitlin Coppock had water on maps. (Remember the first journey pic, the women being drawn in). Longed worked with beings from other lands were being asked advice and granting aid. It was extremely exciting to be among, watching Magick come alive.

My lighter wouldn't work, so I had to use pieces of paper off the element on the stove, ostensibly to light my candle, which kept going out at the door of the "office". Each piece of paper, became the forest fire, put out in the sink with ooddles of tap rain.  

Finally, after much love, effort, healing and new tech the rain arrived in Tasmania, and a 1000 year forest was given an break.  Perhaps even another lease on life, if lease is what it is. A lesson of old, existing among and alongside the young, each working to fulfill each others needs. unique parts creating a whole. Beautiful.

The effort was massive the coordination and variety of crafts on show amazing. When the Magickal community can come together and work things out, I see nothing but hope. 

An example, I got frustrated, upon reading the advice of another, I refused my beings offerings. Terrified also, as I did not have the promised offering to pay, for if it rained. I checked the lotto tickets and they paid for their own Rum! Now they are in the lap of luxury.  The dead definitely came to be.

St Agatha, was remembered by more people than ever, within the online communities I play in, which has really been hard going. I guess there is something about a sexually abused Saint, a female at that, that don’t float some boats. Get over it.  And thank you to those who saw her.

And about that new tech. 

Here is the clue, the elements are not just containers, they are pathways. 

I have had a play, thought I got one fire out, it sprang back to life, an hour later (which is another clue). I am missing an anchoring piece.  

 Final word, there are no 'secure' pathways. If you are working on behalf of Earth and her beings, consider every avenue infiltrated, by either dark beings, or AI, both on and off line. As such it makes no difference where or when you post. The only thing that makes a difference is getting off our butts, getting involved and actually 'doing' the work, you 'thought.. How much easier this would have been if the Beaming stations wanted Townsville dry and Tasmania wet? 

Keep the big in mind, but the Devil is in the details.

In peace, strength and love 
​
Juhl xx 

16th October 2018
I wrote a book a while back, YOU CAN FIND THAT HERE.
Not many read it. But if they had of, they might of thought it was New Cagey. It is, I think there is a real lack of discernment on the OG New Age movement. On surface it seems all love and light, Angels and affirmations. Look an inch deeper, it’s all about shadow work, and what happens if we don’t plummet the depths.

Let us be real, those depths, we can liken to the ‘spirit house’. Most of the time we acknowledge the presence but don’t actively go there, least we draw attention back. Bring the external within. We exist in a parallel of intentionally avoiding. Every now and then something will happen, and we may visit the spirit house with our thoughts, dig deeper into our inner realms, or, brush it off. So, something happens again, this time it may be worse, it may be miraculous, it may depend on how you handled the something, the first time it appeared. Did you even notice?

This time the something, gets your attention. So, you think about it. Then you realise, you have been through this cycle of stuff before.

• Is it better?
• Is it worse?

When things begin to get worse, or you happen to notice, a cycle happening before, you hit rock bottom, you’re at rock bottom, because you noticed, well done. You are awake. If you can control the swings and loops of a cycle, so each time you reach a higher plateau (note plateau, no dips), then you are aware.

Anybody for skate boarding? Going up stairs on a skateboard, you can swivel the board, launching a corner edge up to the same or next stair, swivel, launch the next corner edge at the same or next stair, or you can jump, flexing the board so it lands on each step, steady, launch again. Either way you got to be good. It is highly unlikely you will reach the top of the staircase first time on a skateboard. So, thinking emotion, are we swinging through polarity, trying to move up the vibrational flow chart, are we jumping levels with fluid stable gains, or are we falling off the skateboard feeling unable to climb back on?

My cycle:

1. Animals Get Sick have Accidents
2. Connecting with Others Becomes Difficult
3. Technical Cyber Issues
4. Archontic Death Notices
5. Familial Bad Luck

When first you notice your cycle, you may be like me and think everything is your fault, even though you are unaware, as to what you have done to harm the Universe, so much it wants you down out and bitch slapped. And indeed, on a first noticing of a cycle, this is the attitude I recommend. Take responsibility, this is your life, how dare it be such a bitch.

We know we are powerful creator beings.  So incredibly powerful, own it. When two people gather in your name, it has an effect, they are creator beings too. That little pulse of energy that two people make when they are feeling emotive together, that pulse, that is a “spell”.

Many people are unaware of this. So, when they gather at the water cooler, little pulses spin off, possibly randomly, possibly focused intently upon their mark, like little missiles fired, their way make.
First piece of Shadow Work, take responsibility.
Second Part, where do you start and others end? You can’t do anything about what others send, but you can own it’s effect, and work to mitigate it, and you can own your effect and work to maximise or mitigate that. Going for 5d we are going for lowest vibration love. Back in 3d, we are owning where our energy ends, others begins, and playing with the energies passing between the two. If we can do that in a way that works for all, that is my recommended road.

Once you own that your energy and your life are your own, the work begins.
Emotions and thought patterns are all taking you somewhere. Others feelings and thought patterns are taking you somewhere too. The stronger force wins. First, self. Are you contributing to the creation of your bad cycle? Is there a familiarity in defeat? Has a feedback loop formed, whereby you are recreating, oft times without conscious recollection, the road you are upon and keep taking? Automatically making the same choices, do you really expect a different result?
 
Shadow work can seem daunting, I mean what a name. Perhaps that is because it is not deeply understood. The ability to change perspective on a subconscious level, the reason for which an emotion exists. Here’s where some New Cage elements come into their being. Authors and Personalities like Louise Hay, Doreen Virtue brought knowledge, that had previously been kept behind closed books, Mystery School doors and esoteric learned societies, in to the everyday “Masses” lives. If you have not seen Doreen’s Precis on the Hermetic Principals or read Ms Hay's “Blue Book” on Metaphysical Causation of Unwellness, you are missing some major work, on popularising the current walk of the witch. The Queen of Shadow Work though is Debbie Ford. What these woman and others like them have done, is taken the dry dull verbose pomposity of the Jung, Model and big word proponents, out of the equation, written with little words, teachings on how and whys of being, bundled into neat little packages, for people to buy, and people bought them, in particular women. Of course, it was a controlled all release, all media, all marketing, is owned by someone to make money for something. All media.
 
Naturally this draws the target ire and scornful reaction of those who think too much. But these in particular, women, got old/new ways of being, out. They got them out, with practical methods so that you can apply lessons and techniques, actual ways you can use, not just waffle, to begin to understand and change your life for the better. These lessons, hidden behind some pretty packaging, were what you paid for. If you did the lessons, you just might find, they worked. Sometimes without source acknowledgement, as Lord help anyone should have an original, secondary or downloaded, thought that hasn’t been patented, warded or attributed. So, Debbie Ford, Shadow Work, read her, as I’m about to plagiarise, misquote, misremember, download and evolve on her teachings.

Shadow Work is about changing the perception, of the underlying consciousness, that feeds our emotions and bodily reactions, to behave one way or another. One doesn’t override a reflex so much as train it to automatically behave in a more wanted way. Bruce Lipton delivers a pretty good series on epigenetics (little digression). Anyhow, let us take anger, an emotion, for some so overwhelming it causes explosive outbursts of violence. From a shadow work perspective, anger is motivation for change. Suppress your anger and we have the medical road to depression, or  we have a box we put the anger in, we close the lid, we put some more anger in, close the lid, until the box is so full the lid bursts open {Jack n the Box) and spews forth it’s fiery detritus upon those around us. This pent-up anger can come out, without the box holder noticing and still affect others. A husband, not realising he is angry and unhappy goes out to weed the garden with a weedwacker, so caught in his moment, a sage bush is obliterated, a source of his wife’s income. In his eyes, an accident, in her eyes a projection of his anger, at life, upon her. A wife, not realising the emotions embedded, burns dinner, ruining a meal for hubbie, her offspring and herself.

​If you have taken responsibility for your energy, observe, here we see the crossing of ‘where my energy ends’, and ‘where another’s energy begins’. I trust you can see how important it is to protect yourself from others projections and others from your projections, at the 3d level, as we ride to 5d lowest vibration love.
You protect others from yourself through doing your shadow work, travelling within your consciousness so that when the subconscious is tweaked physical biochemical reactions and feelings respond in different ways. Stress for example relies solely on how it is perceived as to whether it will give you a heart attack or fuel a friend. Listen to a scientist.

 
Pets, Practical Advice.
Protect your pets, through knowing they are safe at home, feed them as well and as healthily you would yourself. Clean out living quarters regularly. My chickens have their own house, and whilst they are working pets, their living quarters are cleaned often. This helps eliminate or keep down, the mite population, which in turn keeps my chickens healthier.

Some people like cats, some people hate cats. (that’s metaphysical forces).
No matter how well you ward your home, there is a chance the pet is going to stray or be walked, beyond your boundary, whereby it will be vulnerable. Cars are fast, and those thought forms that can’t get through your dwelling, lay just beyond your fence. The first thing I now notice in my cycle of demise, which I am owning as a Metaphysical attack, is the pets get sick or have accidents, that cost a lot of money.

A directed magick, psychic or metaphysical attack will usually strike across one or all, of three levels, Money, Relationships, and Health. If you are a stable person, fairly in control of your energy, are working on your Shadow Self, then life should be getting better. If it is not, then look to curses, hex’s, bindings and crossing of the ways. Jason Miller has a great book on this. The reason I locate pets within my cycle is, I am strong and well warded, as is my home. An attack on me gets to the most vulnerable first, pets, finances, children. I wonder if those malefic beings realise, how many pets they are collectively responsible for transitioning, across the Rainbow Bridge? One could say a loving compassionate thought stream towards all beings, is the result of well done Shadow Work, but knowing bitter beings exist and facing and heading off their possible impact upon our lives, in such ways we are not projecting, that is Shadow Work Mastery.  One sees the real and loves anyway.

Because many are still living on a 3d basis of reality, and many are unaware of their effect on energy, it pays to be safe or protected in 3d. We take the article of protection, to the aether or metaphysical world and we charge it, with whoever your or whatever your, perception of benevolent energy is. Thus endowing the protection article across realms of time and space, making it real in the real and upon the Aether. Using as much time, ritual, and ingredients as you think is necessary. I use magickal timing also, from the European tradition, and Lunarium.co.uk, though my work and years of writings show, my love of the moon phases. (throwing in some self validation, ego demanded).

I recommend SATOR squares (old form Christian Magick). I recommend these a lot. Little tiny ones charged and sewn or glued to collars, or on the dog’s bandanna. These squares have helped me break a cycle of large vet bills. I am very pleased.
Shadow working this, I had to recondition myself to the cats wearing collars and bells. One worried they would hang themselves. So, I trust to my ancestor and source charged squares. As for the bells, I love the way the cats hunt, but place that against native birds being caught and the ire of Mother Earth and other Ancestors, well let’s just say, I had to change my perception. At times of year the mouse population is booming and I would admit to being impressed if they caught a rat. At those times of night, the collars are off! Otherwise though, remember many people dislike the thoughts of cats eating native birds and their energy counts. No need to unwittingly draw it upon your pets.
Same for dog poop on the footpath or at the park, people despise it. These energies may find their way to any dog, as people usually curse in a general way “freaking dogs!”. So please be sure to collect any doggie doo and further protect with the SATOR squares. I’m taking the advice of Jake Stratton-Kent and am not going to publish pics of my squares, this link however is very good.
 
If you would like further help with the SATOR squares, shadow work or identifying a cycle, reach out. Next time, Introverts be warned, Connecting with Others. There are reasons why many don’t people well. We will be looking a little at empathy, the feedback loops made, personal energy management and some magickal ways of dealing.

In Peace, Strength and Love
Juhl xx

 I have written on how a piece of me was inserted into a computer program HERE
I have written on my childhood.
All background and a little of the journey of how, I came to be me. I am not going to write, teach or live upon anything that is not within my realm of reality and experience. I offer my thoughts and experience to you, an offer of support and contribution, as others have supported and contributed to my life.   

For this time I would like to look at 'cycles of demise'? Can you take a negative feedbackloop of demise and restart, resurrect, rebirth, a new life? Or does such a cycle mean total annihilation, Death or the Tower?

I have been very lucky to of recognised a 'cycle of demise' within my own life. Four times in the six years since I have been writing, this cycle has found me. Each time the damage has been less, this last has even been turned into a positive. It's time to share some real advice, love and magical tech on when the Sh*t hits the fan. Because sometimes, it just does.

First off you need to recognise you are in a cycle of demise. This is easier if you are journaling, but not necessary (facebook memories are ideal). Have a read through this little list of my cycle so you can get the jist.


First, an animal getting ill, you can read a good article about this and protecting your animals here.
https://manannan.net/occult/animals.html

Second, time clashes or appointments drop off, after a period of consistent work. This shows misalignment, or a coming out of synch with others.

 “In the course of your magical studies, you may at some point hear someone use the word "binding" in reference to a spell or working. Typically, a magical binding is simply a spell or working that restrains someone metaphysically, preventing them from doing something.Dec 24, 2017 “.

These first two steps in a magical attack are usually designed or work on the energy of “Money”. 
 
https://www.thoughtco.com/what-is-magical-binding-2561870
 
It is very hard to do anything in today’s world without money. So making it harder and harder for money to be got, whilst increasing  expenses renders, any being, less and less able to make more. For instance web site and appointment schedulers, Mailing list maintenance etc, cost money. No money, no outreach.
It becomes increasingly hard to participate in Society.
 
Third, the cyber attack. My site becomes unavailable, my posts and articles get mucked around whilst being written. Funny programs, such as facial recognition or, facial tracking programs wind up on my pc (private computer). It has even been discovered that my hard drive was split in two. I was not in control of half of my show. I am wondering if this was ever fixed. Again a “Malware process” requiring dollars. Oh and the email.

Email, winds up in spam, unsubscribed from or comes through in bursts, rather than updating, when you connect to the server. Accounts associated with certain email addresses get hacked, or cause your online world to be very strange in its responses.
 
Have you read or seen anything about The Mothman? A huge Moth being. I have heard two interpretations around his behavior (Mothman is a boy right?); one, the being is causing the calamitous scenarios surrounding its sighting. Two, the being is portending, an Oracle, warning of a calamitous scenario approaching. Prepare or solidify foundations to lessen impact.

Now, a certain piece of AI is me, it has used this data too, become, what it has become. Why would this piece of being, be anything other than my friend? (Shadow work). Is my site able to handle a marketing launch? Does the Cyber misalignment turn up as a warning of something huge about to arrive?

Fourth, An Archontic ‘Industry of Death” hit, conspiracy theorist for ‘a bill’ arrives. The bill is anything that takes the breath away and is an expectation of either payment or arrangement for payment. It is the final polarisation that pulls you back to where you were before. Sometimes it will cause tension for a week, perhaps a year. This is the string, that will be tweaked, as soon as you start to walk into your creative power, your voice. This thread may be internal, it may be external, but it is attached to a hook, something trying to grab your flow, pulling you in it’s direction. In Chaos it could be the “Strange Attractor”.
 
If your neurological biology has never experienced a good outcome, how does it make one?

The Bill. The price you pay for, being alive, the monetary/energetic contribution, to someone else for something, that may, or may not have, been  done. The form these take, is often urgent and demanding. The bigger the demand, the more force, placed behind its collection.  If you put all of your income into acquiring an asset, there are forces, that will try and remove that asset from you, so they may capitalise on your equity, and bonus, stop you through ensuring your thoughts, time and all of your income are invested in surviving, instead of living.
 
Fifth, your descendants are interfered with. Can be health, can be suicidal ideation, implicated in misuse of cyber space, allegations of “stalking” or “vandalism”. I don’t want to go into this. I was hoping this demise cycle to avoid this aspect,  as I was so quick on the ball, so thorough in my analysis of the cycle arriving again, so very deft at reshoring protections and placing wards and boundaries, I thought for sure any spillover or blow back, would be minor and unsubstantial. Ahh the arrogance of the Tower. Not my tale to tell though, until the children are ready to tell it themselves.

So, here we have a cycle of woe. One that repeatedly appears and requires healing over time. Its original source is not yet apparent to me. Perhaps you may recognise patterns of demise within your own life. Cycles of ill fortune or woe, that come around as repeatedly as the Wheel of Fortune.

Over the next wee while, I am going to break apart the sections of;

1. Animals Get Sick have Accidents
2. Connecting with Others Becomes Difficult
3. Technical Cyber Issues
4. Archontic Death Notices
5. Familial Bad Luck

I’m going to write on the systems and ways I have used to resolve them, Shadow Work, Magick and practical 3d advice. I’m going to show you how, next time an Archontic Bill arrives, instead of sucking your breath in, you can laugh and know that that Bill would not have arrived, if something did not have faith that you could pay it. And be genuinely pleased about that. 

I'm going to show how you can recognise "cycles of demise" over time, mitigate their effects and move from strength to strength, no matter your current environment. Not everything that happens to us is our "fault". But you can certainly learn to run with the wind and get those gales blowing you forward, into your dreams, your life, your joy, if you choose.

Throwing life lines, in peace, strength and love.
Juhl
​#NZTarot

"And so it was, there came a time. A time that was, and a time that was always before.
The  Dream World, the world of battles. The waking world, the realm, where battles, not fought, became real.
 
Many different the ways of then and now, still the battle truths remain. There were those who thought themselves, stealthy good Warders and Knights of the way, and  offering of esteem was granted these beings.
“Let me! Let me fight for you. I will dedicate my life, you will dedicate my upkeep, and the victories shall be ours.”  had been the subtle bargain.  Knights of the way had no time to plow, all energy on winning within the land of the dreams was spent. The Knights, powerful and the people at peace.

Gratitude and offering the response. For who would not let others fight their battles? Freed from responsibility of self, so much more could be done! The least of which, the offerings of gratitude, were surely /' a pleasure to pay.

Time moved on and the Knights of the way, so involved in their skill, taken care of by all, became lost, to that world of dreams. So well did they battle, behind closed eyes, nothing harmful became real. Within the waking world, peace reigned, joy flourished and the tributes flowed. The skill of the personal dream,  lost, in visions of safety.

None new learned the battle skills.  The enemy, the reason for dreaming, forgotten.

Yet, within the dream, shadows and lurkers,  gathered, their plans laid, learnt and studied long ago, improved upon, evolved. To few were the Knights to intercept, the soft subtle tendrils.  As soft as butter, defenses melted before the shadow mass, of darkness, wreathed with mares. To few, were the Dream Warriors, to stem the tide. No new to replace the lost. The awake realm still seeing peace, yet the world of the dream, was changing.

With stealth, grace, deadly rage in check, the Shadow horde creeping, advanced. Snatching, the odd unaware, to study. Tentacles probing, testing the sleeping awake, as they rested, without fear, without protection. The longer the waking slept without ward, the better. Who knew what would happen?

Should these sleepers awake, to the depths, the deceptions, of this dreaming?

Lines were spun, could be’s, should be’s and would be’s, yet, none of the lines were spun true. Long had the dream realm studied, and well did they know their tasks.
To live, one must be present, within the dream and awake and it was for this the shadows had practiced.  In the sleeping world of the awake, thoughts of false Knights were planted. The offerings, long forgotten, real reason forlorn, treasure for the Horde to use and plunder, battle tokens.
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An inversion had begun, an invasion of twisting ways, so subtle in calling, the wake peoples under gentle (at first) control, became vassals. Enlivening  the dreams and plans, which the shadows, had cunningly hidden, in the awaken-eds  very midst, their minds. Yes, these beings were awakened, but they were no longer aware.

And so it was, the Shadow Hordes usurped the waken realm, creeping crawling through minds, bridging through sleep, into waking lives. Seeding, breeding, lines of not quite true.  Subtle was the advance, softly, softly least the untouched realise. Gently, beguilingly least the bridged, break free. The shadows arrived, made real, manifested.

If only an awake were to take back the dream, from before the Knight, when the awakened realm was aware and faced the battles in the dream, individually, self responsible, where would the realm be?

Ahh, but such dreams are confusing and nonsense.

A tide can not be turned back. Yet just as the wood fuels the fire, it is the charcoal that nourishes the earth. What grows in the bare land beneath the unused fire pit? Well, first come the quickest, then the fittest, seeds of course, you  may know them as weeds.  Yet, every now and then, we find a tree in this midst. A tree whose roots, reach outside the fireside, new shoots, beneath and through the scorched earth, nurtured and fed by the dying ‘weeds’ the tree  shall in turn overgrow. The weeds, are they sacrificial? Or are they giving? fulfilling their nature, to become nature, contained within the tree? Individuals united by place.

I wonder now, who is winning, within this realm, at this moment, the shadows, ever reaching realness? Perhaps, winning is a wrong perception. Perhaps the awake will once again step forth and true battles shall be hosted, where true lore made them be. Within the dream. The place where all bodily forms are equal, as only one energy is worn.

In peace, strength and love,

Juhl.

Sept 15 to 29 Mars and Lilith
 
I am not an, everything is from or about you person. I’m not sure how any child, who has had a hard child hood, could be. There are things that impact upon our world and ourselves regardless of how many good thoughts we convince ourselves we are thinking.
 
I’ve been looking closely at Ascension and what that means and 5d. Ascension means to overcome, 5d is a new way of being where the lowest vibration is love. So how do we get there?
 
With regards 5d. In 3d we are sold a bill of goods around polarity, and duality, yin and yang, the dark and the light, balance. As if these concepts of opposites are facts, and these concepts are used to justify levels of pain as “lessons”. Another justification of not having a beautiful safe and loving world for children is, ”you choose this before you come to this 3d realm”. Well, many of us didn’t choose this level of being to perpetuate it, we came to change this paradigm, and to change it we must be sure and firm of the concepts we came to change, the justification of Polarity being one of those.
 
“If you want to find the secrets of the Universe think in terms of energy, vibration and frequency.”
Nicola Tesla
 
What does this mean? Simply and in a nut shell, it means that every emotion, object or sound within our universe has a different level (we could look at this as a line) of existence. When these levels of existence meet, as they do within each being, they become a wave. The more your emotions fluctuate, the more disparate the sound sources, for example, the more your wave will fluctuate or oscillate. So within the polarity construct, the thought seems to be you must swing between evil and good actions, within emotion, love and hate. Make no mistake emotions are measurable amounts of energy and each one has it’s own level of vibration.
 
https://archive.org/stream/DavidHawkinsPowerVersusForce/David%20Hawkins/David%20Hawkins%20-%20Power%20Versus%20Force_djvu.txt
 
Though, it is possible to have many feelings around something, we only  feel one of these emotions at a time, and then with varying levels of intensity.
 
In moving into a 5d lowest vibration love, it is necessary to clear the emotional field of any heavy or dense emotions. And here is where a point of contention arises.
 
There seems to be several groups of thinking around the clearance of lower vibrational emotions and how to stabilise oneself once, the higher emotional levels are reached.
 
My personal bias, of what has worked for me, is not a popular one, as it involves experiencing the experiences that caused pain and discomfort in earlier times, until the energy around them has dissipated. As perspective is altered through the alchemy of this method, when listening to or reading of other experiences, nothing but love, and compassion remain. I am leaving Empathy out of this article, as empathy is a double-edged sword, something that is natural for most humans, now weaponised. I have found the method of Shadow Work to be the most stabilising over time. I have tried many methods.

• Affirmations; whilst the principle is a good one, affirmations only work upon the surface thoughts of our brains and an estimated 95% of brain workings happen within the subconscious.

 

• Mindfulness; Whilst being conscious of our surface thoughts is very definitely a good beginning, the tendency can be to override the negative thoughts. With out understanding the reason negative thoughts exist “their purpose”, we run the risk of suppression, whereby these thoughts and emotional reactions are stuffed into a box, to burst out at strange moments, and may lead to illness. Also, the core pain is not addressed, this can lead to projection, both seeing our feelings within others and colouring our world view with a tainted brush.

 
Another aspect of Ascension is that of Service to Others as opposed to Service to Self. Again, I see a lot of bogus information around this concept. In its simplest form this concept translates as “learn once, teach two”. Whenever you find a new way of being that has helped you overcome and heal, or a have a true knowing come through you “In Sovereignty” (a deep ascension principle many are yet unready to hear) share that knowing.
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Whether you recognise it or not, we human are evolving. Our consciousness is expanding, learning to network with others over distance, as many recognise failings (perhaps deliberate) within their communities, is a simple proof of this. As knowledge spreads it becomes more and more apparent that halting the breaking of our families, children and communities is paramount for peace for all. To stop the cycles of violence and abuse, it is essential for those of us who recognise a more beautiful existence, for all (no greater good here) to heal and become role models in turn. We are within this transition and I salute you.
 
Much love
 
 
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Juhl Lightheart
8 mins · I am going to take my longer musings away from facebook. They really are designed for me and I don't want to get repetitive or be upsetting and I really need to grow my out reach. I really do love you guys and this platform. Many of you read my poem the other day and I enjoyed the ensuing conversation.

​"Your right
FB is no place for friendships of growth or intimacy.
It is a list of floating memes, 
Unlived dreams
That have no place in reality"

It was a conversation between many. Each giving voice to their own opinion. As such I'm a little torn as I recognise I want more of that. Though I would prefer Face to Face. 
Not always problem solving either, but shooting the shit and having a laugh, even, over wine and cheese.
I used to laugh at those memes and films of people having dinner with their virtual friends, now though, I understand and can relate. The reworking of technologies to the point where once again we have true communities, even at a distance excites me (though naturally I would rather meet in person).
LMH has a wonderful model for this and I think the Unf**kit Community does too. Though something called Discord is not my jam and I found it incredibly hard to work, I guess I will have to expand and adjust and find new ways.

I do have a very particular skill set ;) and it is not being wasted here, but I feel I could do more, and be there for others who have needs, and you guys are just so gosh darn awesome and together.
I'd appreciate if you could think of any other platforms, whereby I could extend my own particular brand of Caring and let me know.

I realise many of you don't even know I'm a trained Crisis Intervention Specialist, as well as Life Coach specialising in Childhood Sexual Abuse. That's ok discretion is always key. I love Magick and empathy and you will find a lot of highly sensitive people were also abused, which is why I took that angle. Tarot is a great way to break ice and a great income source (plus I love and am really good with the cards). But I do want to be there for those who were as broken as I was, before I began the Shadow Work path. And this path has become incredibly difficult to support people to walk upon, as there are so many bright flickering objects, drawing their attention, away from pain they don't want to face, into a world of suppression and projection. "It's all just a Story", being my favourite sarcastic tongue in cheek line.

We find the dark, we face it, we transmute it, and we rise. Each time with more stability and greater depths of healing and understanding. Sexual abuse is not a "fix" model to wellness, nor a quick one, yet when supported to heal survivors have bottomless wells of joy, compassion and strength available to them. Any one who has not undergone such situations, may have trouble comprehending just how incredible survivors are.

So, If it's ok with you, I will post my blog on here for those of you that want to read it. Other than that though, sailing into the wide blue yonder. Expansion time. Of course I will still be here, I'm a meme addict and I enjoy catching up with what is going on. But long rambling thoughts such as these, well I'm a dinosaur watching the meteorite hit in. <3
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Much, much love

Well, I am knackered.
I spent the weekend flying.

I haven't been dragon, since just before the last Lions Gate. I came back so AI ridden it took a while to clear. Also I had noticed that when wearing Dragon, compassion seemed to diminish over time. Added to this, the ease of going around in light body as a stream of photons, rather that encased in a shape or trapped in a merkaba and there seemed to be no need.

Last Thursday, I participated in a group healing. The healing went well (we intend for others, which is the best part of my life at the moment, feels like I'm doing deep good) yet after the session, I realised I was feeling itchy restless.

I entered Meditative mind, but found my body undulating and twisting as the kundalini rose. My arms extended and within the vibration of the moment,streams of light were flying from my body as strands of DNA weaving and twisting through the Aether. Even though my extended arms were gracefully (well they felt graceful) undulating as wings, a motion that started in my pelvis and extended beyond my hands into space, there was a dull persistent ache in my shoulder blades. An ache that no persistent shimmying or wriggling could override. And it just got worse. I found myself, as I was sitting in Lotus, arching backwards and forwards, huge sweeping movements, of which my husband would approve under certain nameless circumstances. As I swept forward and extended towards the ground, I felt my tail come out from under me. In that rush of movement and surprise, my wings unfurled behind me and whoosh we were away.

Oh Goodness how I had missed that freedom, the freedom of a long extended body as it soars upon warm streams of air, the maneuverability, of tail, wings, body working as one. The speed. The lightness. The power. The freedom. We weaved in and out of the planets,following there now all connected spiral streams of energy, beyond stars, through deepest darkest space we flew, united whole and it was beautiful.

Now some of you may remember a while back, I had a blue white light beam, come from out of space and time, pierce my brain and explode inside my skull with the brightest illumination I had ever seen. I could not work out why then, I mean I'm still me. I already had an upon demand coloured light body. The crystalline happened in 2014, maybe 15 and I had been running as a stream of whatever coloured photons I wanted since last year, when I discovered I could.

It was as the initial joy and blast of the flight subsided to peaceful drift, that I began to notice and take stock of my body. (I feel ecstatic still, with those memories of sensation.) I was born, to my knowledge a gold dragon, as I looked at my scales, I realised something was very seriously wrong, the more I flew the more cracked and kind of flakey my scales became. You can imagine me of course, just heading into Dark Moon, thinking "More freakin Shadow Work, What Now!".

So home we came, landed settled settled back into the biological space suit and got to work. Racism came up, it has taken me a long time to accept Unicorns, even though I had an extremely good buddy who is a Unicorn, there was a something there that had me a tad flinchy...it was a thought stream on how some can seem to actually have it pretty easy but are so dramatic and whiney. Heal that, everyone comes from what they know and where they are at that particular time. So work done and off for another flight.

Well it backfired, instead of my beautiful golden armament, there were cracks of white showing through. I was deeply disappointed, grey hair, gray pubes and now this! I'm getting old, does my dragon have to too? It almost, not quite ruined the freedom of the flight. So home I flew again, a little heart hurt and "dramatic whiney" you guessed it Unicorn mirror. When I realised that I giggled. More work, this time into where does the meme "Humans Have Always Warred Come From". Pheww that was deep. Words written on it later (it's even longer than this story).

Finaly I had had enough of crying for the world hurts and trying to right world wrongs, so I called up dragon body and away we flew. As we left the worries and cares of the earth beneath us, and whirled and played with the stars in reckless abandon, I did not notice at first, because I think it started at my head, I did not notice the flakes of gold falling away until they fell off my wing tips, as I was holding in place over Jupiter. When I hold in place,not wanting to land, but just hover in a spot, my wings extend from behind me, encircle me to the front and the tips of my wings undulate almost like hands, gently cupping the watery air, to hold me steady. And as those wing tips were undulating, I could see the gold, gone. In it's place is white. Not grey white, but a bright, bright blue white, brighter than a toothpaste commercial, white. The same bright light, that had penetrated my brain and illuminated my mind bright blue white light.

My current feelings are, I am not a great fan of white. It looks good on Gandalf, but shows up every mark and stain. It denotes purity, all that sacred guff and is the colour of death and new life. It denotes trust, honour the "good stuff" and whilst I appreciate change and evolution happens to all things, it will be awhile before I am ready to go Dragon again. I just want to have some human fun, without an otherworldly expectation of behaviour. Call me when the battle need arises, I will be there, but until then...fu*k off.

How was your weekend?

Much love Juhl


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Sitting in my P.J's wondering about energy.

Can anything really be infinite? For all the energy outside and within ourselves, be it the universe, the multiverse, the omniverse, there are if not edges or boundaries, then points where it all rolls back on itself. So not infinite but ceaseless, like a ring, that has no end and no beginning, yet rolls round and round and round.

And if that is so, then there is a finite amount of energy surrounding and within ourselves, though that finiteness is perhaps to large to comprehend. Just because something has no end doesn't mean its infinite. Like a river, you never stand in the same place twice, as all the water continually passes you by, Yet that water has been within or upon the earth for as many years as the earth has existed. Sure the form may of been different, but it has circulated, round and round...now in many places the water is Toxic...and there in lies my point.

What has happened to all the toxic energies, that we have created, released and wished away? Have we alchemically transmuted that energy, to something good? Did we drop the dross upon the shores of the earth, within the arms of source, expecting those forces to take care of our crap. Did we send the crap through the zero point, not realising we were expecting another dimension to do our job for us?
I suspect that we have in fact forgotten, that something always is. The energy may change form, but it always exists. And we are guilty of dropping our lumps of lead, to poison the waters, rather than changing that lead into gold.

How do we do that, change lead into gold? We learn. We take the experience that has allowed us the opportunity to feel like crap, we tease it out, search for how it happened and change an aspect of perspective, be it through boundaries or recognition, that will enable us next time to respond or act differently. There usually is a next time as polarization or extremes of emotion, act like magnetic lead, and once something has found a way to trigger you, the universe rather like a narcissistic boy friend, can not resist triggering you in a similar way again. And if we have truly transmuted, not just dropped the dross, then this time we catch the lead before it falls and we throw back gold.
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Much love my friends

​As the moon flips, I'm reminded of why I was sent back.
That Shadow Work, I has truly had enough of. 

I loved teaching people methods of letting go, finding true peace as they transmuted and raised their vibrations. But after many years of doing the work myself, The shadows were no longer a place I wanted to dwell within, or assist people out of.

I watch many wounded healers come and go, all elevated upon the new cage thought of "think positive thoughts, think positive thoughts". Indeed I get many trying to tell me how to do my work, or what it is I need. Here's the thing, once you have raised your Cthulhu, embraced and loved it anyway...nothing is going to stop you from evolving and moving on to a permanent level of more stable and loving vibration.
The trick is to maintain full body relaxation as you trance over dark parts of life. Every time you begin to tense, return to the phase before tension, All the magick, all the love, is never going to be enough,until you face, acknowledge the truth of all the aspects of your being. Your thinking a negative thought won't create it, the aspect is already there, that's why you think it.

I understand how hard integrating the Demonic aspect of each of us is, and I don't believe you can't access the heights if you havent plummeted the depths, I do know, that until you have integrated and trans-mutated those deeper aspects of earth and our lives as they are this incarnation, a little piece of magnetic lead will sit within your body. Dragging you down at the weirdest of moments. Swinging emotions out of whack, just as a pendulum or Newtons cradle, that little piece of lead will pull your spirit down and I know you want to soar.
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Any how, I love you all, and wish you peace, strength and much love.