(Note my Illuminati, full disclosure, eye).
Well I was feeling really buoyant.
Oh yeah hung over, slow to start...when the party ends...and work kicks in.
I love reading cards, I’m good at it. The Tarot is my friend.
Yes, I hide behind my cards, I’m not ready to have thought streams and dead people turning up off the cuff. Book an appointment please.
And therein lies the rub.
I do not want to be the callin lady for urgent business. It’s too messy and could have been avoided had you decided to book in for a full reading earlier. (My blog, my rant, I get over it).
Some things I have discovered, about my reading and the cards, yours will be different, but the fact I have discovered this about myself and the tarot relationship, should suggest
If my cards are kicking up dates over six months away, the message is more in the cards, than in the dates. Although I have had two instances, both within the same reading, that have given me pause for thought. The Fool appearing in past position, seems to be a way of the cards saying. “All of this spread, is because of something that happened in the past”, indeed, the outcome card gave the date of the original faux pas, rather than the time the incident will be reconciled by. And the King of Swords, Death and the Ace of Swords, can mean teeth trouble, when appearing within a reading, not necessarily in that order, or together.
Dates can be fitted in with long term goals, but really, unless I am looking at the most disciplined of people, rigidly held and i's dotted to the T, shit happens. Three months is long enough to show the tendencies of thought, emotion, reality, cleansings and general wellbeing, that are going to reflect in your manifestation, of the Magick of being you.
My goal, for everyone, is to get them using their intuition, to help people navigate their world in a beautiful way. I’m a Magickal life coach. My training is ongoing, as should yours be, but I have definitely paid to learn what I am doing, live what I am doing, and have watched it work, for both myself and others for long enough, to charge a fee.
I also have been working for long enough to know, if people don’t pay a fee, they don’t value or think about the information presented, deeply enough to make it count and use for positive change.
I want you, reading your own cards, using a pendulum, or to become so aware, of how energy affects your body, you can tell your yes from, your no.
My standard teaching for survivors of childhood abuse, in particular highly sensitive or empathic people is this.
N.B. I use the Chakra as energy areas of the body, you may intuit your own energy system, but these areas of the body will still respond in similar ways.
Sometimes living really can screw with your intuition, as the people you love and trust are often the ones that hurt you. So, you may feel you are continually "going against" your greater good.
A lot of people know about that "gut feeling" (some listen to it lol). And yes, it is there to keep you safe. Many believe it is the sacral chakra responding to people and situations. Here is the thing though...This area has brain cells, which may be why a lot of memories, of relationships, are stored or energetically pinged here.
When you meet someone, and you get that gut feeling (for good or bad), it may be that the energy of this person is evoking the sacral memory response. For this reason, I would like to introduce you to another form of intuition. That of the heart chakra.
If you place your left hand over your heart chakra, place your attention within its glow, and redirect your focus to the person met, notice what changes. If you relax, it may have been the sacral memory mentioned earlier. If the feeling is the same and the gut remains tight, MOVE ON!
Now this handy little tip is great and can be applied to those "prospects" in the bar. When you get those wow, eye meeting moments...Reach up and adjust your bra strap (disguising your left hand over the heart area) and redirect your gaze. Listen/feel what changes. It may be your sacral going: Hell Yeah! Two Pairs of Shoes under my bed tonight! Or leading you into the karmic dance of another chance to be the one that ends those, no good abusive, go nowhere, run arounds.
Alternatively, if your heart is still singing...This may actually be the one. Trust it..
This line, or thread, of thinking has a long lineage behind it. I’m sure others have put it together also. I have just been practicing a new/old way.
Mr White, during a Necrophysics lesson over at Rune Soup, mentioned how he felt a yes or no answer, come in from the universe.
Juhl’s mind went into overdrive. Yes or No, what answers that instantly, a pendulum, what do you have to do with a pendulum, you have to program it! You align yourself with the pendulum and ask it to show you a yes, then you ask it to show you a no, and some, program in a maybe, or up to fate, or something neutral, allowing the universe/source/energy/God some privacy or discretion of action.
So, I aligned myself, with me and my kind of energy (love) and asked, straight out for how a yes was going to feel and how a no was going to feel. Boom instant physical answers.
No, I have not had a chance to go gambling yet, responsibility and being aligned with love are my thing. And I shall start small 🙂
I am however extremely excited.
When I first began work in the intuitive field, don’t make me count how long ago, I began shadow work on myself, and there was no way I could get such a clear and crystal, yes and no response, (yes, I tried) and no way, would I have trusted that signal. Mr White and I however, share some Doreen lineage, it would appear and I am using that game card, to put this thread of thought, out. (My naming them, is a lineage of my thought, which goes way beyond them both. One could term the beginning in time, of this thought collective, an Ancestor). You shall have to sign up for the course, as I did, for much more.
Finally, the point of this whole long missive, I think is a good one. Using my methods and systems and thought patterns, a lot of love from and for others, I have evolved to the point where I am a relatively in control cosmic conduit. I have allowed myself to dig deep, to hurt, to ritual, to meditate, to do whatever the fuck it takes, to make it to and stay within that special place of growth, aliveness, levity, compassion and love, that allows me to be as I believe we were all meant to be. Yes I’m egoic, yes I’m opinionated, yes I have chosen my own programs. I am totally human. Happy to evolve my ways, if you can show me something truly better. The best part is, if you haven't got that flowing, healthy, almost in control feeling, where you are picking up what the universe is putting down, growing a wonderful life for you, your family, and the world, YOU CAN GET IT TOO.
I am the biggest screw up I know, sexually abused, drug addicted, hooker, bankrupt, sinner, you name it throw it at me, it will justifiably stick. And yet I feel great. You can too, just carry on doing what you are doing, sharing what works and owning those muck ups. Sometimes learning sucks. We should only need a lesson once. Reach out and book some time with me, if you are on your second or third round, I could support you in your efforts to grow. Be scared, change happens, let fear guide you if that is what it takes, transmute that fear to anger and wow, we have Alchemical gold for change.
I hear this rumour that Mercury and Neptune are doing this dance, and Mars is there and Sirius is disappearing for the first time ever on Tuesday, and isn’t it all a bit much?
Live your own Legend
In peace, strength and love
Everyone but me did a blog last week.
Everyone but me has their sh*t together.
Whiney whiney whiney.
Yup that dark moon is approaching, time to think about what you might like to release and replace. I knew I was on the wrong Timeline when I heard Mr Maxwell say the conclusion of 56 years of study is; that if you are Good, you will be Poor.
Where is all the money?
Where did all the resources go?
Perhaps it is time to realise Global stuff don't work and return to more localised forms of care. When people are deciding not to have babies, because they don't want to add to the worries of the world, we have a problem.
Can we just admit defeat and move on to other ways? Within permaculture there is no need for polluted air or lack of food. Why isn't everyone doing permaculture?
Here are Jeff and Jordan having a discussion, some well reasoned arguments, maybe.
When I was growing up, there was very little in the way of self help, let alone intuitive and gentle woman, fairy belief, literature. The Readers Digest, had odd tweaks of times different and shad/owes to explore. Getting the real stuff though was very precious. I learned my sexual education from "The Pearl", something that shall forever warp me and force me into Otheriness. Too many years, since my last confession.
Any how, how does an incredibly screwed up twenty something go from suicidal to, well, at least I have lived, still am?
The answer may flaw you, please don't let a "because you never pulled on that thread" upset you. Louise Hay and Dianne Stein, along with, Whatever was At the Library. Even back then, books were expensive.
If a pamphlet entered the house, you read it on the toilet, if nowhere else, and you read it from cover to cover.
I didn't hear of Doreen Virtue, until I came online. I still didn't see her, but she had the most wonderful readings of the Kybalion. The first time I had heard the Hermetic Principles and I pinged, I pinged hard. Here were words that expressed what I knew and was intuitively living. I then tried Doreen's meditations, of chakra cleansing. I was pretty up with chakra and kundalini through varying teachings by then, but her tapes were still good.
I purchased Doreen's esp third eye opening exercises, they were cheap as, good, involved crystal lessons as well as visualisation., Very rudimentary, but for the price and for someone who was looking to solidify all forms of Magick as being as Natural as Breathing, it was at least a sign that someone was beavering away out there, trying to get knowledge out, without the old boys network totally silencing another, lets just be loving voice. Because make no mistake, this is what the conflict is about, silencing the Lets Just Love One Another voice, especially if raised by a woman.
I did find her next incarnation with Angel beings a tad hard to follow. I know there are many beings and my life has been such, that I am very untrusting, of anything bearing gifts :) working on it. I did have a brief flirtation with Gabriel and the Kabbalah, though that, is another story, for another day. So Doreen and I parted ways.
Here, now as a woman and a would "see love upon this world" person, I ask you too remember, our roots our Ancestors and stay those knives. Doreen is one of us, she is a woman who, in spite of how things may look and turn out, put knowledge in front of us. We could pray for her. And we could also learn some lessons.
If you have been raised within Empire, no matter how Pagan you may now think you are the Christ lessons permeate our existence and programming in a way very little else has been able to do. Maybe shaved legs and pits (here's an alternative). In particular we are counselled and raised to believe in saviors, Politicians, Dads, God or Gods to name but a few. Within the spiritual community, if you get into trouble you are hard pressed not to go past the Bible and Christ. Who has not seen the Exorcist? Many people who have had encounters with weird energies such as ghosts, demons or aliens, depending on their lexicons, have testimony on the efficacy of calling on Christ. He turns up and does the job, sometimes even if you don't believe in him.
The problem of what is happening with Doreen and many others, is slightly larger than a haunting. There seem to be people within each spiritual, pagan or town community, that wish others ill and are using energy to back up their will. The gossipers at the water cooler, we can forgive, they know not what they do. But to bind, curse or malign someone, simply because they have what you want, is just a tad gnaff in the 2020's. As people who wander the borderlands, is this type of behaviour, what you want to take forth? Was all that learning ill gotten, are you so desperate for change, that harming others is the loop you have settled upon, rather than elevating?
So much hard work has gone into bringing knowledge forward, to the masses for use in elevating every-bodies consciousness, into realising the sacredness of every being. There was always going to be a price for this knowledge, many are paying it. I'm sure the Mystery Schools and Guru's, in particular are a little put out that information is now readily available online or within self, and their energy counts. The systems they taught behind paywalls, are coming to us all and coming to us almost free. Making Intellectual Property and acknowledgement of where a particular system or magickal technology comes from, twice as important. This is lineage, it is where the knowledge comes from and is every bit as important as bloodline, as all knowledge can only be viewed through the lens of perspective. A perspective that is uniquely our own, yet touched and built, through all that has touched us.
Be the kind of Other you can live with. Be your own legend. Be the Being that when the moon became dark, retreated and thought about where that thought was coming from. Be the one that sought the silence, Through the pain and discovery of self, to the triumph of thinking your own thought. Your own thought of your perspective. A thought whose lineage you can trace. Then arrive at a thought that is solely yours.
Go on I dare you.
Dark moon wishes and much, much love.
Simply My Thoughts